let down and depressed

first let me ask a questions. does anybody ever read this blog. i am not sure because there is no hit counter and no comments. what good is a blog anyway if no one ever reads it? it just becomes someones personal digital diary that no one ever reads about or even cares about outside of the person who write it. i am in just a bad place tonight. i have just come from a place where i heard a comment that makes complete sense now. i was not really sure about the reconciliation of a relationship until just tonight. it has become apparent to me that it has just been swept under the rug. furthermore, i am not sure i understand why i am not considered a friend to some people. friend is such a relative term, isn't it? i guess under my terms, i am only just an acquaintance. so be it. i guess i can not stop some people from thinking the way they do about me, even if it is just their perception of me and not the truth. is someone's perception their reality? who knows. i promise that if no one starts to read this, i will discontinue keeping it up.